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Fruity- King of Salamanca by SubukuNoJess Fruity- King of Salamanca :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 13 18 SNJ Reference Sheet by SubukuNoJess SNJ Reference Sheet :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 8 8 Bioluminescent Twins by SubukuNoJess Bioluminescent Twins :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 11 7 Moana OC- Makapo by SubukuNoJess Moana OC- Makapo :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 8 7 Moana OC- Pouritipu by SubukuNoJess Moana OC- Pouritipu :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 11 10 Wishiwashi Gijinka by SubukuNoJess Wishiwashi Gijinka :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 6 4 OAV- Tama and SNJ by SubukuNoJess OAV- Tama and SNJ :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 9 4 Gift- Picked Up Fan by SubukuNoJess Gift- Picked Up Fan :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 7 6 OAV- Human Tama by SubukuNoJess OAV- Human Tama :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 9 8
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Bill's Random Stuff 7
Bill Cipher's Random Stuff 7
AN: The seventh installment of random one-shot skits from Subuku No Jess' stories and different fandoms. Most of these are non-canon and OOC. Be warned. - Bill Cipher

"Hello, readers of DeviantArt!" Bill Cipher greeted as he was sitting on a giant throne in a dark room while sipping some tea. "Welcome back into Subuku No Jess's mind. Last time, I managed to make Weirdmageddon possible, possess the writer, and take over the world by storm! I made myself home in this weird mindscape and I wanna thank you all for supporting me and the writer. So here's some clips I managed to pull up two years in the making! Without further ado, let's get this chaotic party started!" Bill cheered, snapping his fingers.
How I reacted to Tokyo Ghoul Season 1
SNJ was walking through a store until Kaneki walked up to her, holding up a purse. "You forgot your purse, Miss!"
"Why thank you!" The writer smiled, getting her purse back. "You are so kind and nice."
"Well, i
:iconSubukuNoJess:SubukuNoJess
:iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 7 16
Crab Maui by SubukuNoJess Crab Maui :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 9 5 MP- Taboo the Mimikyu by SubukuNoJess MP- Taboo the Mimikyu :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 9 3 Monster Meet and Greet RP by SubukuNoJess Monster Meet and Greet RP :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 12 129 PAI Valentine- Regret by SubukuNoJess PAI Valentine- Regret :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 6 10 PAI- Settling In? by SubukuNoJess PAI- Settling In? :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 5 2 BATBEC- Human Forte by SubukuNoJess BATBEC- Human Forte :iconsubukunojess:SubukuNoJess 6 5
My art and stories. Please someone comment/fav/or at least looks at them D:
I'm trying my best here!

Favorite AUs I made that you want me to expand upon? 

29%
6 deviants said Predator Falls (Symbols of Cipher Zodiac are real life monsters that are connected to main characters)
19%
4 deviants said Bioluminescent Twins (Dipper, Mabel, and Tamatoa- Crossover "Friendship")
19%
4 deviants said Kaitiaki Pāpaka (Human/Monster Tamatoa AU where Tama is Moana's "guardian", helping her become chief and lead her people in exchange for gifts/sacrifices)
14%
3 deviants said Human Monsters (Monsters from different fandoms are humans with human names)
10%
2 deviants said Omniscience (GF ending was an illusion and Ford is ruler of the galaxy with Bill, forever bound to him)
10%
2 deviants said Brains (GF Version of a Grim Adventures episode. Dipper turns into a brain-eating monster, but still cares for his sister)
0%
No deviants said Shiny Chains (Maui is forever bound to Tamatoa whether literally, mentally, spiritually, or any other way)
0%
No deviants said An AU not on this List

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  • Reading: Textbooks
  • Drinking: Apple Juice
I was going through tumblr this morning when I saw this on my dashboard and decided to watch it:



I am now crying internally.

This got to me because I am with autism/on the spectrum. Although I'm on the high end of the spectrum now, I saw myself in the new character Julia, especially when I was a little girl. And I think this is one of the first modern media in which they portrayed autism very well, especially to a younger audience so that they could at least understand. I recommend watching this.
Um... remember when I did that confession a couple of days ago? I appreciate all the support I got and I was really happy. But the day after, one fanfic writer updated her Moana/Little Mermaid AU fanfic and I recorded one of the latest chapters with my voice... and I remembered crying at the end about my worries and everything... and she responded:

For a fan by tornrose24
I'm.... really shocked and happy right now. Words cannot describe how I'm feeling and I can't believe how she responded to me in this way. All I want to say is at least check :icontornrose24: out. She a great artist/writer/and person to talk to. And her words make me more confident to comment more on people's work.

So... I'm really happy and crying.
  • Reading: Textbooks
  • Drinking: Fruit Punch
... This is going to be a long journal of confessions, feelings, and honest opinions that might either be ignored all together or people would hate me for it/take the wrong way. Before I say anything else, I want to make a couple of things clear:

1) This has been bothering me ever since last year, so I need to get this off my chest.
2) I am a very emotional person, so right now, I'm in tears, so please bare with me on this.
3) Before you say that "I'm a selfish/self-centered person only thinking about myself" or "I'm doing this because I want you to feel pity towards me", "I'm this stupid weirdo" or even "I'm using my disability as an excuse", I ask you to please get out. For years, I've been holding in my anger, my opinions on people, and my problems, so now that I'm slowly accepting myself as a person, I want MY opinions to be heard!

With that in mind... I'll start with the main confession:

Yesterday (while I was going through a massive headache), a couple of my friends wrote down "MCF Confessions" where they reflected on their OCs, their writing at the time, and how they were glad that the MCF finished when it did. It made me remember everything and it took me a while to process it.

First, about Jessy... the only two things I regret about MCF Jessy as a character was:

1) Her relationships with the Vore Gang. (More particularly Twoey and Oogie for personal reasons)
2) That I was letting others write her character/backstory. With that, it's sort of borderline because in some cases, I liked what some of my friends came up with for Jessy while in other cases, I didn't. Now that I think about it, this reason was probably why Jessy "failed" (failed is too strong a word) as a character.

Other than those two reasons, I'm proud of what I had for Jessy at the time.

Looking back to my writing, I was the dark oddball out of the group. While most of my friends would write adventure/friendship/fluff, I was the one who was writing dark/angst/philosophical stuff mixed with comedy/friendship, and monsters/vore. Back then, I felt like an outcast for it. I written down many ideas for OCs, plans, etc. but felt self-conscious about it, so I didn't share it with the group or I didn't develop them enough. I felt rushed, out of the loop, and forced into something I had no idea about.

Now for the main conflict: The break up. I'm finally going to say it: ... The MCF breaking up almost destroyed me as both a person and a writer.

Here's what kind of a person I am:

1) I internalize my negativity and emotions, saying that I could handle it when I can't. I also don't want to worry people.
2) I was taught to be a loving, compassionate person, so I'm very emotional and I take things to heart.
3) It's difficult for me to be assertive and say "No" to people because I don't want to upset or disappoint them.
4) Years of being bullied, judged, and ridiculed in school and on the internet made me self-conscious of what others think of me.
5) My greatest fear is being alone in the world with no friends and family.

So when everything ended, I was devastated. I cried, screamed, and blamed myself. I wanted to scream at my friends and just forget everything. I felt like all of my ideas were all for nothing and I failed as a writer and a friend. Although I'm still friends with people, to me it doesn't feel the same. Even now, I'm nervous about sharing ideas with my friends. Don't worry. I'm slowly taking it one step at a time and I was always nervous about what others thought since the beginning. I still feel that I'm the most sinful and selfish person in the world because I feel this way and that I'm different from my peers...

.... But looking back and getting inspiration from my writing courses in college, relaxation, and media, I found out:

1) It's okay to feel this way.
2) It's okay to be different.
3) Before you worry about others, you have to take care of yourself first.
4) No one should tell you how to write. You could agree with the person or disagree. In the end, only you decide what works for you as a writer no matter what people say.
5) You have to be able to enjoy what you are writing.

Does that mean everything will be back to normal soon/right away? No. For me, it'll take a while for me to step up and make that change. Does it mean I hate my friends in any way? No. I love all of my friends with all my heart. You guys are the reason I keep going. The reason I keep writing. Were there moments/scenes/ideas I disliked? Yes. But I'm not going to flat-out hate them or condemn them. Yes, I admit it's Mary-Sue or whatever you'd call it, but it's a chance to look back at those mistakes to not repeat them and the good qualities you liked in the past.

I just want to write what I want to write and take my time doing it. At this point, I don't care if I'm the giant crabby monster by the end of this.


Not that this is out of the way, I finally confess two last things.

One, concerning roleplays... I'm honestly tired of people saying whether it's open or closed or judging me. I'll try to find time later and clean out those I'm not doing and I'm replying at my own pace and my own time. I'm not going to drop what I'm doing to force a roleplay out.

and Two, due to feeling defeated as a writer along with having Writer's Block for a VERY LONG TIME... I actually got myself a tumblr. Before you say anything, yes, it's probably a stupid move and it'll mess me up in the near future. BUT I felt like I needed it. I need to develop my ideas, my novels, my artwork... start fresh and work my way up. It does not mean that I'm abandoning this site AT ALL. I'm going to be on here and tumblr and actually work on a schedule for myself. Also, there are some artwork/stories/roleplays/etc. that would be exclusive to deviantArt and exclusive to tumblr.

That's all.....
Fruity- King of Salamanca
... The things I do for a badge around here. ^^;

Truth be told, at least this is tame compared to other April Fool's things DA has done. Plus it's a way for me to practice drawing fruit on Paint.

So to try to be different (and still stuck on the Moana fandom), I have the Biting Pear of Salamanca singing, being shiny, and having bioluminescence! ... I'll walk myself out the door now.

If anyone likes this, comment and/or fave please!

Thank You and Enjoy~



Tamatoa and Shiny (c) Ron Clements and John Musker
Biting Pear of Salamanca (c) Itself. No one owns this bird and man-eating pear if they'd wanna live!
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SNJ Reference Sheet
A Reference Sheet for my fan representation of myself, SubukuNoJess!

I decided to practice drawing reference sheets for my OCs not only for myself but for others (mostly my friends and people I give permission to) to draw my characters for whatever reason. For the first one, I drew out a full body of myself/SNJ. This is what the writer of stories/the person I'm roleplaying as would look like. Here is some info:

- Prefers to be called SNJ, Jessica, or Jess.
- Color scheme is dark colors, shades of blues and reds.
- Would usually wear casual clothing (baggy t-shirts, sweatpants, and sneakers).
- Wears eyeglasses for distance. One of her eyes is near-sighted.
- Bioluminescent colors are when it's really dark. I went with crying tears and stitches.
- Due to feeling like she would say the wrong words or people would think less of her, SNJ wears a mask covering her mouth.
- Without the mask, SNJ has sharp teeth. Whether it's real or all in her head is up to the RP.
- When roleplaying other characters (Canon or OC), the mask would form the name of the character.
- Can be tiny or giant depending on the RP.
- Most of all, SNJ is a story-teller in that telling stories to other people is her passion.

Still trying to get a hang of drawing bodies.

If anyone likes this, comment and/or fave please!

Thank You and Enjoy~


Myself and Artwork (c) Me
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SubukuNoJess
Jess
Artist | Student | Literature
United States
Hello and welcome to my DeviantArt page. My name is MJSmoothCriminal999, but you could call me Subuku no Jess, SNJ, or Jess.

My page is under construction, so please bear with me.


Other Websites I'm On/Used to be on:
MJSmoothCriminal999 (deviantArt)
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BoogieGirl159 (TNBC website) Link: tnbc.eu/member/profile/8337
Interests
  • Reading: Textbooks
  • Drinking: Apple Juice
I was going through tumblr this morning when I saw this on my dashboard and decided to watch it:



I am now crying internally.

This got to me because I am with autism/on the spectrum. Although I'm on the high end of the spectrum now, I saw myself in the new character Julia, especially when I was a little girl. And I think this is one of the first modern media in which they portrayed autism very well, especially to a younger audience so that they could at least understand. I recommend watching this.

Favorite AUs I made that you want me to expand upon? 

29%
6 deviants said Predator Falls (Symbols of Cipher Zodiac are real life monsters that are connected to main characters)
19%
4 deviants said Bioluminescent Twins (Dipper, Mabel, and Tamatoa- Crossover "Friendship")
19%
4 deviants said Kaitiaki Pāpaka (Human/Monster Tamatoa AU where Tama is Moana's "guardian", helping her become chief and lead her people in exchange for gifts/sacrifices)
14%
3 deviants said Human Monsters (Monsters from different fandoms are humans with human names)
10%
2 deviants said Omniscience (GF ending was an illusion and Ford is ruler of the galaxy with Bill, forever bound to him)
10%
2 deviants said Brains (GF Version of a Grim Adventures episode. Dipper turns into a brain-eating monster, but still cares for his sister)
0%
No deviants said Shiny Chains (Maui is forever bound to Tamatoa whether literally, mentally, spiritually, or any other way)
0%
No deviants said An AU not on this List

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:icondetective88:
Detective88 Featured By Owner 4 days ago
Hi, Jessy. Missed you. 
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:icontimeboy08:
TimeBoy08 Featured By Owner May 20, 2017
Hey there :)
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:icongigglingmenehune:
GigglingMeneHune Featured By Owner May 19, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Hey Jessy, just want to know how ya doing, you have been offline for quite a while and I just want to make sure you are doing ok. :) 
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:iconjoshpoint0:
joshpoint0 Featured By Owner May 19, 2017
hoi thar
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:iconlje13:
LJE13 Featured By Owner May 11, 2017  Student Artist
Hey Jess, how are you doing?
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:icontimeboy08:
TimeBoy08 Featured By Owner May 11, 2017
Hey :)
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:iconsubukunojess:
SubukuNoJess Featured By Owner May 11, 2017  Student Writer
Hi :)
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:icontimeboy08:
TimeBoy08 Featured By Owner May 11, 2017
U okay?
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:icongigglingmenehune:
GigglingMeneHune Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Hey :) 
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:iconmagicalalchemist17:
MagicalAlchemist17 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey Jessy :)
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:iconstormy-sketch:
Stormy-Sketch Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2017
Hello~Thanks for the fav!!
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:iconminimedraws:
minimedraws Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2017  New Deviant Student General Artist
It's done I hope you like it!

minimedraws.deviantart.com/art…
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:icontornrose24:
tornrose24 Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2017  Student General Artist
www.deviantart.com/art/crab-fi…

More crab!Maui. Not me, someone else, but I thought you would like it. :)
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:icongigglingmenehune:
GigglingMeneHune Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Hey Jessy how are you doing? :) 
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:icondetective88:
Detective88 Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2017
Hola, Jess. How are you today? Missed talking to you.
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